After my daughter’s Christmas party, I had a word with her teacher. As a point of reference is the fact that she’s the youngest preschooler on that school, she told me she’s a very smart girl, very talented, she already draws as if she was older, she always colors inside the lines, etc. etc.The thing that really upset me and made me very sad is the fact that, the image she has from me is from the mother that arrives home and has to cook and is in the kitchen. The teacher said: “your daughter misses you”. Oh boy!! that hurt.
Working from 9 to 18:30, arriving home at 19-19:10 leaves me little time to be with her and my son, I admit it, but there is nothing I can do to avoid it. My bosses don’t want to change anything on my schedule, for them I could leave at 19 or 20:00 they don’t care. I have this job for 13 years, I have my status, my salary and with my age, I can’t afford losing it, I can’t live without it, without the salary, I would if I could.
I have to adjust time, make it longer, at least try.
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Instead of spending the lunch time blogging in the office I will start coming home and do some laundry, prepare dinner in advance so that I have less to do when I arrive home at night.
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Establish bath time to prevent me from saying 10 times that it’s bath time.
- Leave blogging, checking emails and twitters for after the kids are asleep (if I’m still awake)
What else can I do?
I realize that she ask for my unconditional attention, I guess too much attention, she wants me to leave everything behind to give her all the attention. Sometimes I have to refuse because I have other things to do and she has to understand that. It’s like: I give one finger and she demand the hand.
Of course this is always my forever dilemma, and for those that followed my other family blog know that, I always wanted to be a WAHM but that it’s not possible here unless I had married a very rich man and that’s not the case.
I have to continue to search ways to manage and organize my time, but what I realize is that time goes by, kids are growing up and I’m missing it all.
