I’m disappointed, after all the anxiety I went through because of the Pap Smear test, the doctor had to go to the ER and my appointment was postponed to May 19th.

Having a good RealRank on my blogs is an objective of mine, the problem is: where do I get the time to regularly update my blogs?

Being “what those that follow this blog already know” (full time worker, 2 kids, I do my own laundry, cleaning, shopping, etc) even with the help of DH, I’ve got little time left to write.

Since I started paid blogging, I have no time to watch TV or to read a book because all my “little” free time is to blog, to write posts, some paid posts, paid reviews and, guess what, I really like to blog even if I have to leave some other duties behind.

The money I receive for paid posts is not that much but it helps in the monthly bills and although I know I could make more money online, I have no time to research and optimize my blogs. I know keywords are important but when I’m writing I’m not thinking about them and therefore no special keywords are written.

I wish I could dedicate myself to blogging and have my full income from online money, but that’s not possible right now. I also know that continuing writing the way I am (not regularly) I will never get a good RealRank and therefore only a few opps are available for me. Also who wants to advertise in low traffic blogs?

My blogging future is, at this point, uncertain.

Sorry for those that visited this blog expecting new posts but life has been difficult for me.
I know I mentioned this several times before: full time job (leave home at 8:30, arrive at 19.10), two kids, cooking, laundry, cleaning, a husband that requires my attention and all the other stuff I have to do and remember.

Four blogs, yes 4,my blogspot one was supposed to be inactive for a while but guess what: I’ve been receiving linkpost to write there besides PU2B regular work. Blogspot blog is the one receiving more comments (probably because there is no spam filter in blogger) that’s why I’m now moderating the comments there. I really have to decide what to do, I already removed it from some social networks but I guess I have to remove it from linkworth and PU2B and lose a few dollars.

This blog was supposed to be the blogspot substitute due to all the “own domain” and “own hosting” dilema, but the truth is people keep coming back to the blogspot one. I guess I just have to “forget it” and keep up with this blog and the other two I have and where I love to write.

Another headache, I live in Europe and as you know we have the Euro currency. If you get paid 50$ for paid posts you receive 50$, when I get paid 50$ I receive now 31 Euros, two years ago 50$ meant 50 euros (+/-). These last months things got really worse and everyday they are getting worse, so this is another daily worry for me, I work hard with paid posts but each day that goes by I receive less.

Due to all the life, family, work, blogging events, I haven’t been feeling ok for a while, I’m a little depressed, fed up with my full time job, wanted to live from internet income but that seems impossible. The result is anxiety and a 20 minutes Tachycardia that almost took me to hospital on Wednesday. This is not something new for me but a tachycardia so long only happened 8 years ago, usually they last 15 to 60 seconds. I’m better now but still worried about the future.

Blogging is something I like to do and the extra money I earn is really helpful. Here am I now at 02.17 writing this post and already have some tasks assigned to write. Everyday I look for other sources of income. Europeans also have a disadvantage - no samples for us to review, no contests to participate, well…

I really like the blogspot blog but I really have no interesting things to write there besides paid posts so I guess I just have to stop writing there and forget about making money there. With time I hope to get more work for the others blogs.

This weekend was a tough one, I’m not writing about it now because it has pictures and bad and good news, events that hurt my heart but tomorrow or Wednesday they will be written.

I’m sorry Catherine for not being able to write a post on your birthday day (Saturday), you know mom was not ok!!.

I have so much to write, today and tomorrow I’ll be at home, but with the kids I already know time will be short.

As I had scheduled paid posts on my other blogs this one has been neglected. I still haven’t found a way to organize my paid posting in advance.

I haven’t been doing paid post on this blog because I don’t have time, the paid posts I have for my other blogs are enough to keep me busy for hours. Right now, I just have to find some quiet time during the weekend or even during the week to write those paid posts that are not personal, that can be written in advance. I know a lot of people do that, specially on weekends, I have to give it a try.

Personal posts, well…those have to be on the day, on the moment otherwise they aren’t real for me. For now I want to keep this blog personal, family, parenting related and those subjects for me, can’t be written in advance.

I spend a lot of time reading other bloggers posts and that also takes the time away from me, but I love to read and I can’t avoid reading my regular blogs even if it means no time to write my owns. How do you manage this?

I must confess, these last few days have been very tiring, I’ve been really busy at work and with personal matters to take care of, like ID card, medical report for Dani because of soccer training, an issue of my mother regarding electricity ( a huge account to pay), I have no time for myself, my life always spins around everybody’s life but mine. This last three nights I had to take a anti-stress pill so I could get some sleep because…I couldn’t sleep due to muscle pain, bone pain, all caused by stress and anxiety.

I’m feeling much better know and I hope I have a great weekend. A great weekend to you all !!!!

I’ve been postponing to write about diaper’s issue because I did once and things didn’t worked out.

I can tell now that for 3 weeks, Catherine is not using night diaper. I tried last year but it didn’t work out because she continued to wet the diaper at least 2 or 3 times a week. I didn’t worry at all. Dani wore night diaper until the age of 4 so I was just waiting for her timing (she’ll be 4 this month).

Three weeks ago, due the suspicion of a urinary infection that fortunately was false alarm, I decided to give it a try and no more night diapers.

During the first week, at about 1am, I used to take her to the bathroom to pee but than I stopped doing that and in three weeks, I can say, we had no wet bed.

I guess this is it…no more diapers in the house, well…only baby dolls are allowed to wear them.

…but time has been too short to update my blogs. I literally “crashed” physically last week and I wasn’t able to blog as I used to. I hope to get back on track tomorrow.

I posted this picture on my other blog and it’s amazing the number of traffic it drove to the blog. It really is a beautiful picture that’s causing impact in some readers. Also that post is the post with the most number of comments I ever had on that blog.

I’m publishing it here so that the readers of this blog can appreciate it. The text I have with this picture on the other blog is:

I received this image on my office email, and although the day was not going the way I liked it to go, this photo made my day.

I’m not very fond of cats but this photo made me smile. It’s beautiful and transmits a serenity and calm I need sometimes.

Some interesting things around my feed reader:

• Leave Elizabeth a comment and tell her what the most sweetest Valentine was that you ever sent, or received. She will then chose the 3 sweetest and those will receive a Promotional code worth $29,99 to purchase a box of thirty customized Fruit Rollups from My FruitRollUps. The contest will end on January 29th.

• Tina makes me laugh with her Ebay addiction. Poor cat.

• Lisa wrote a post about a Autism that everyone should read and participate. You just have to watch the video and the band the Five for Fighting will donate $0.40 to Autism Speaks.

• This smile just made my day. She’s gorgeous.

• Thank you Elizabeth, your post Getting it “all done” is so true. There is always something missing, I really want to get everything done but sometimes (or most of the time) it’s not possible no matter how much I really try .

Since Catherine’s surgery that we have the Sound of Silence around the house. The snoring and the apnea is gone. The awful snoring sound around the house at night is gone forever. She can now sleep quietly, breath without effort and silently.

I remember this feeling from when my son came out of surgery almost 6 years ago, for the same reason. I would get up several times a night to check if he was breathing. Catherine has been sleeping in my bed since surgery, it was a couple’s decision to check more closely on her recovery, and sometimes, I wake up in the middle of the night just to check the Sound of Silence.

Right now, she is here next to me sleeping and the air just flows freely through her nose.